My favourite thing about writing these types of poems is not knowing what the poem is about until it’s finished. Because the creative process is not the typical one, of responding to a deep need to express something. With these, I here a song from my playlist, and feel something stir inside me. If the feeling in the pit of my stomach is strong enough, I select it to be squared2. Then watch as I start to express things i didn’t even know where residing within.
Yesterday I fell in love, today feels like my funeral.
The past can feel like the end, when isolated pain becomes communal.
I just got hit by a bus, shouldn’t have been so beautiful.
Your impact sprayed into rainbows, then soaked the desert full.
Don’t know why I gave my heart, gave my trust, gave everything.
You think if I had the chance to do it over again, I’d do something different? Make better decisions?
The beast I was before follows behind, close like a night terror only just escaped – the bed of indecision.
Give my all, you take it from me.
Take my all; you gave it to me,
Don’t even replace it for me.
But I keep making the same mistakes before – I see the danger but I go forward.
Repeated footsteps into the abyss, comfortable I’ve become to the darkness, my instincts a miss.
I feel like a killer hit me, the weapon was concealed initially.
Lover, assassin? The bullet thread to both, but at least love initially.
You deserve to feel it with me more.
I feel like I beg with you, plead with you,
My tears, a shallow drop in the Sahara.
I can’t comprehend how you can’t love when it’s so easy too.
Soft is the spirit that see’s the spaces between trying harder.
I thought you could do it, I believed in the naïve in you.
Little dress and footsteps towards me, disarming smiles that came from youth.
I just need to breathe, baby, now I got the freedom to.
First air of the saved, or last gasp of the failed? Love together and choose.
Yesterday I fell in love.
By Alpha Cauwenbrgh < Chris Brown/P. Diddy
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